Having had a little holiday, in which I managed no reading and very little knitting (but still had a very lovely time, just to be clear!), I have been thinking about things. The things I want to get done. The time I have available. Whether the things I want to get done are really the things I want to get done, or are they just things I feel like I should get done? What is realistic?
There is a lot going on for our family at the moment, covering a wide variety of stresses, and for all the things I want to get done, I know I can’t.
So, a major thing I’m working on at the moment is boundaries. Working for myself and from home is amazing and I love it, but the boundaries can get fuzzy. I have some rules for myself. I should never find myself trying to answer a work email and playing trains with Small at the same time. And when I first started my business, this was enough. I had one client and a baby who wasn’t particularly mobile or vocal. But increasingly, it’s not. I have 20+ hours of work on my radar, plus a full-time toddler and home. It’s a heavy workload. I love all of it (except the housework, I do not love that), but it’s no wonder I don’t knit or read as much as I would like, and it’s no wonder that the list of things I’d like to do is rather on the long side. So, I have been thinking about these things:
- The changes I can make to my home life
- The changes I can make to my business
- The changes I can make to my expectations of myself
- The changes I can make to my planning and organisation
- How to be more honest with myself about my priorities and motivations
- How to be realistic about with is feasible, mainly in terms of the money and time available
It’s a process. But I am coming to terms with where changes need to be made, and slowly pulling together plans to properly account for the changes in my family and business over the last year. It’s rather exciting, and rather intimidating all at once…