The first talks about how we define self care and that for some of us it’s about what we need to continue to function more than it is about a candlit bubble bath. The second about how even creative people can suffer from burnout.
For me these are coming up at a very pertinent time. I have flu. My husband has flu. My child has flu. I think the dog is ok… The Small One is having a period of difficult sleep. I work for myself and if I don’t do the work I have agreed to do, I let my clients down. So basically, I am poorly and sleep deprived. Because my husband is sicker than I am, I am shouldering the bulk of the childcare and trying to keep up with my work. It’s hard. It’s fine, it’s how life goes sometimes, and I know it will pass.
However, I also need to survive it. Today this meant that I took a nap when Small did. Usually his naptime is my whirlwind time. Work, laundry, phoning the vet. The things that are prioritising someone or something other than me. I realised that I could force myself to work or I could admit that if I want to recover from this flu I needed sleep. And it was the right idea. I feel much better. I have more bandwidth to look after a Small and to do my share of household tasks. I even still got some work done and am not in any danger of letting anyone down.
I am actually quite proud of myself.